Thursday, September 04, 2008

Shock, denial, anger, bargaining, depression, testing and acceptance.

These are the cycles of grief according to Kübler-Ross. Clever lady.

I am back in Melbourne now for a new-new start. For me it is the end of this cycle and the beginning of a new adventure.

There are no regrets for following my heart to Japan. Love is powerful and steers us through all sorts of storms and paradises. I am happy to be the sort of person who is not afraid of where love may take me. I always want to be too. I don't want to be bitter or angry. I don't want to be closed.

But I know myself too and love cannot be completely blind - its definitely got to be vision impaired, but it cannot be without all sense and reason if you want to survive it! I have spent a lot of time in my 20s figuring this out and I know what I want and how I want to live. I know how I deserve to be treated and I know what will make me happy.

At the end of this chapter I am left feeling strangely numb
The moments of despair and anger have passed
I am no longer overwhelmed.
The path ahead is not laid out, but the next step is very clear.

I wish you well.
Perhaps there will be a time when fond memories connect us instead of this grief.

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